Wednesday, November 30, 2011
This was shared on Facebook today from a friend. I needed to hear it.
..come before God regularly...Strengthen your inner life through reading, praying, and distrusting your old way of life. Altho you have lived far from Him, You need not be afraid to come to him like a little child. Tell Him how weak and miserable you are, tell Him what you need and what bothers you...put away all your grand ideas and just be honest with Him. -Fenelon p. 109
I'm still feeling like I've made a mistake and I want to go 'home'. To St. Louis, to my house, to my old job, to my friends. My husband thinks we need to stick it out and that if we go back now it means we've failed. I don't feel that way at all. I know if I leave that means I leave my sis all alone as Justin goes off to basic training and that kills me. I love being with her, but my day to day work is killing me. I feel panicked and overwhelmed almost 100% of the day. I feel confused, lost, scared, and just want to curl up in my bed and cry. Why am I feeling this way? I've prayed and prayed and nothing feels different. I know God doesn't work in an instant, but how do I know if he has a plan for me to stay or a plan for me to leave?
Someone help me!!