Thursday, November 24, 2011

Overwhelming Thoughts


This past week has been such a strange and very difficult week. As most of you may know, I left my job, my home, my comfort zone of St. Louis and moved to Houston. My husband put his faith in me wanting to do this and didn't question my decision. 

I started my new job Monday and had a short 3 day week. I'm in a bit of an overwhelming culture shock as I adjust to the differences of this job compared to my last. I assumed some things would be the same since the jobs are in the same industry. However, I would have to say nothing at all is similar in any way. 

I can usually handle change if I know it's coming, but this has been entirely different than anything I've experienced. I find myself exhausted, scared, frustrated, and just needing a familiar comfort zone. Unfortunately there is almost nothing familiar here. 
 I have my sisters, and that's great. But we have no home of our own and I do not feel even slightly comfortable at my new job. 

Help! What do you do when you feel like you've made a huge mistake? Do you keep trying and put in all your effort? Or do you go back to what you know you can handle?


Today is Thanksgiving, and I know I have many things to be thankful for. A roof over my head, food in my belly, a paycheck, etc... but those aren't the things I can focus on with the thoughts and fears going through my head of what lies ahead...

6 comments:

Sara Brooks said...

I love you! Everything is going to get better, I promise. I am here for you if you need to talk - you can bounce ideas off me or just vent. Happy Thanksgiving and keep your head up! You will figure it out! =)

Dana said...

Jenn,
I'm sorry it's hard. You're facing so many huge life changes at one time - http://www.roadtowellbeing.ca/questionnaires/life-stressors.html

Just wanted to encourage you that you are feeling very normally. Hang in there!
Dana

tiny dancer said...

Change is hard! I work a job that I love so much, but it keeps me moving constantly and moving really stresses me out. Usually the best thing for me to do is think about how miserable I'd be if I had a different job and think of this quote that I LIVE by and it helps me through it :)
- you can never cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore -

Hope that helps! You'll get through it girlie :)
Tasia
http://rufflesandsequins.blogspot.com

Madelyn St.Claire said...

Oh, I love that quote from Tasia.

Jenn- hang in there babe. You are a strong willed and minded person, I have faith in you. The people at your job have faith in you, your family (who means the most) has faith in you. You can and WILL come out on top.
Nothing in life is simply handed to you. You had your calling and you went to it, now stay with it.
As much as I miss you, and how easy it could be to let go and come back, you cannot do this. :(
Everything will be beyond fine. You have a loving and supporting husband who believes you in 100%. Its gonig to be hard, and it will require you to confront your fears, but You can do this. :)
xoxo
Madelyn

Courtney said...

Oh sweetie I will be praying for you as you fight it out. New jobs are so tricky but I'm sure you'll find your place in time. I always give myself three months to truly feel adjusted to new situations and it seems to help me relax and somewhat enjoy the process of feeling totally uprooted. If you still hate it after three months, then you may want to rethink it, but really I believe God gives us the strength for all and any circumstance He allows into our lives. Seek Him and you will find your strength. I know it!

womanwalkignupright said...

Thank you for sharing your struggle. When we have made a decision that we are unsure about, whether it be "right" or "wrong", the one thing we should do is fall to our knees and pray for clarity. Ask Him to lead you to a moment of "aha" and ask Him to make a way for you to fix the situation. I am sure you've done this, but hope that at least it helped in some miniscule way! His grace is sufficient and He will get you through this! I pray that you find comfort during this time of unrest my sweet sister!

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