Wednesday, November 30, 2011
This was shared on Facebook today from a friend. I needed to hear it.
..come before God regularly...Strengthen your inner life through reading, praying, and distrusting your old way of life. Altho you have lived far from Him, You need not be afraid to come to him like a little child. Tell Him how weak and miserable you are, tell Him what you need and what bothers you...put away all your grand ideas and just be honest with Him. -Fenelon p. 109
I'm still feeling like I've made a mistake and I want to go 'home'. To St. Louis, to my house, to my old job, to my friends. My husband thinks we need to stick it out and that if we go back now it means we've failed. I don't feel that way at all. I know if I leave that means I leave my sis all alone as Justin goes off to basic training and that kills me. I love being with her, but my day to day work is killing me. I feel panicked and overwhelmed almost 100% of the day. I feel confused, lost, scared, and just want to curl up in my bed and cry. Why am I feeling this way? I've prayed and prayed and nothing feels different. I know God doesn't work in an instant, but how do I know if he has a plan for me to stay or a plan for me to leave?
Someone help me!!
Thursday, November 24, 2011
This past week has been such a strange and very difficult week. As most of you may know, I left my job, my home, my comfort zone of St. Louis and moved to Houston. My husband put his faith in me wanting to do this and didn't question my decision.
I started my new job Monday and had a short 3 day week. I'm in a bit of an overwhelming culture shock as I adjust to the differences of this job compared to my last. I assumed some things would be the same since the jobs are in the same industry. However, I would have to say nothing at all is similar in any way.
I can usually handle change if I know it's coming, but this has been entirely different than anything I've experienced. I find myself exhausted, scared, frustrated, and just needing a familiar comfort zone. Unfortunately there is almost nothing familiar here.
I have my sisters, and that's great. But we have no home of our own and I do not feel even slightly comfortable at my new job.
Help! What do you do when you feel like you've made a huge mistake? Do you keep trying and put in all your effort? Or do you go back to what you know you can handle?
Today is Thanksgiving, and I know I have many things to be thankful for. A roof over my head, food in my belly, a paycheck, etc... but those aren't the things I can focus on with the thoughts and fears going through my head of what lies ahead...
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Friday morning we successfully packed up our cars and embarked on our journey to Texas! With only 5 hours of sleep...my husband and I each driving our cars alone for 15 hours, with a doggie for some company, we were on our way!
Cars were packed to the brim.
So many miles ahead of us!
We left Missouri behind...
The further south we got the more leaves were still on the trees. It was a very beautiful drive!
We finally made it to Texas and that was the worst part of the drive because highway 59 goes through towns and changes speed limits every 5 minutes and has stop lights, etc. I was so emotionally drained by the end of the trip I couldn't wait to rest!
Getting to Houston was a relief! While our house is selling and we are getting settled in the area we will be living with my sister and her husband. You can check out her blog, Barefoot & Beautiful to read about the house she just bought and see the progress as we help her remodel it!
I start my new job on Monday! Wish me luck!
Friday, November 18, 2011
As of lately I've been slightly obsessed with Karlie Kloss, an amazing young new model.
Karlie is from St. Louis (Webter Groves to be specific for you locals out there...), which interests me even more. Also I went to college with her older sister. After I discovered the connection I started watching for her and following her ads, runways, etc
She is so young and has managed to land big designer names and numerous runway shows during many fashion weeks. She is only 19!!
Her runway walk, one of the most unique, is often described as powerful and 'panther-like'. At one time Tyra mocked her walk, and now she claims Karlie is one of her favorite models. (Of course she would...)
Donna Karan print & runway
Oscar de la Renta runway & print
Dior - retro look print ad
H&M Fall lookbook
2011 Victoria's Secret Fashion Show
Hope you love Karlie as much as I do!
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Today is my last day of employment in St. Louis. My wonderful co workers set up a smörgåsbord of snacks for the day, an awesome sign, a lovely card with sweet words, and later we are having one last happy hour!
Gonna miss these ladies for sure!!
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
This past weekend was our last weekend in Missouri. Friday night we had a big dinner with friends at Cafe Eau in the Chase Park Plaza hotel.
Here's some photos of us & the wonderful friends that joined us!
As you may have noticed my posts have been a little slow lately. The packing and busy tasks on my plate with this move has been keeping my overwhelmed! Also Sunday night my husband and I got food poisoning! We were both in terrible shape and needless to say I didn't feel like blogging. Today I'm much better though! Only 2 more days at my current job, 3 days until we pack up and hit the road for a looong drive to Texas!
Wish us luck!
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Oh the joy...
Packing and stacking boxes neatly so I don't clutter up my house while it's trying to sell...
Wrapping things in bubble wrap...
Patching up holes in the wall from nails...
All the while Milo is there to keep me company!
Tomorrow will be our 4th showing and Sunday is our open house. I sure hope we can find a buyer soon!!
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
So I haven't done an outfit post in a while and I thought today was a good day. The skirt I'm wearing I got from Goodwill a while back. A cute score for only $3! I usually pair it with the same white top and black cardigan every time I wear it. I hate when I get stuck in ruts of wearing the same thing the same way over and over. Today I was happy to pair it with a teal tank and cream cardigan. I know, it's not like I went crazy out of the box, but I'm happy! :)
Cardigan: Express, Tank top: Q&A, Skirt: Mossimo from Goodwill, Tights & Jewelry: Express, Boots: Faded Glory